Friday, September 7, 2012

My Memorial Speech

This is the speech I read at the cemetery yesterday evening.  Family and friends gathered around their grave in a circle to celebrate their birthday. Thank you everyone who came to celebrate. It was so comforting having you there supporting us through this hard time of grief. 

Standing here before us was once the body of our beloved daughter Faith and Hope. The bible tells us God planted a garden and made our first parents from the dust of the earth.  Ever since then humans have longed for the garden of paradise. His saving passion, Jesus was buried in a garden and rose from the dead on the third day. Forever making all graves and graveyards holy places. We should always show great respect for the dead because while they were living it was the temple of the holy spirit. So we come here today to decorate the grave, celebrate their birthday, and show them love and respect.

Let us pray...

O God you gave us Faith and Hope as our daughters/grand daughters/nieces and with your love and grace you have called each of them home. This day we celebrate, their birth into the world exactly one year ago today. God thank you for continuing to be our light and guiding us out of the darkness of grief.  God please be with us all as we journey without these two beautiful baby girls. Now that Faith and Hope have gone with you, every single memory is precious and holy. Bless each memory we have of them, that they may always live in our hearts and minds.  We know you Lord are taking great care of them.  One year has passed and yet we feel near to them.  Our hearts yearn for their touch. Though grief as softened, a duller pain is still there. Their bodies were bound together in my womb and their souls are forever too. O Lord thank you for allowing me to give them life. I have been truly blessed by their presence and amazed with what a miracle you created. I don't grieve for them but for myself, as I truly miss them. We shared so much, yet it was only 23 days. Help me Lord realize the distance is not so great and one day we will be reunited in heaven.  You took them to a place of paradise, where there is no sorrow, crying, or pain just the fulfillment of peace and joy for eternity.

Wednesday, September 5, 2012

Faith and Hope's Birthday

Today we celebrate Faith Rosemarie & Hope Lillian's Birthday!
They were born on September 6th 2011 exactly one year ago from today.
I can't begin to tell you how much I really miss them. 
I can't believe that a whole year has gone by.

Video 1: 
The night before I gave birth, I hated knowing I wasn't going to
have them in my womb anymore, protecting them.
I started to tear up at the end, very emotional day.
.Leaning on God's shoulder.

Video 2: 
This video my sister took just seconds after Faith and Hope were born.
I treasure this video, along with many others. 
The Nurses and staff were trying their hardest to
 let me see my beautiful girls for the first time.
.Beautiful Chaos.

God found great plesure of take a lowly thing in the world and show truth.

Update: I am doing good most days, but of course I still have my sad days. Lately it's been really overwhelming with all these different emotions leading up to their birth. Some times I can control myself and others I can't. Another reason my emotions are a little off  is because my husband and I are expecting a little girl in December. Getting all of her things ready for her arrival, reminds me of when I was getting things ready for Faith and Hope's arrival. Some days I spend my day reading old emails of encouragement, while others I flip through photo albums. Not a day goes by that I don't think about them. I am so happy with the choice I made by giving them every chance at life to live. Those 23 days I treasure forever in my heart. Every day I watched them grow was a miracle to me, that kinda feeling you get when your child becomes the president or finds the cure to cancer. They truly were nothing less than an amazing gift from God. I forever remember all of the blessings and prayers that we received during and after my pregnancy. You are truly wonderful people. Thank you all again for the love.

Monday, May 21, 2012

God's Love

I'm going to tell you something I hope you'll never have to know. I'll tell you how a heart can break and tears can constant flow. No I didn't break up with my boyfriend, I didn't lose my job, or my house. I lost my baby girls. Angels in my eyes. God chose to take their hand one day and led them into the skies. But please do not forget my daughters. They were a person too. Forever they will live inside of me and you. So, please don't ever tell me that time will heal my pain Because not even time can bring them back again. Just tell me their happy in heaven waiting for their mommy. That their snuggled in an angels wings all wrapped in God's love.

Thursday, March 1, 2012

Amelia Lee and Allison June

Recently it was brought to my attention of another couple carrying conjoined twins. Reading her story brought make many memories and tears. I'm hoping that these baby girls have a fighting chance at life. Their anatomy is different than Faith & Hope's. Their anatomy shows 2 hearts and are facing each other. The mothers story tells about how her own doctor recommend termination also, as they did when I was pregnant with Faith & Hope.

"I went to my first high risk doctor three days later. He did an ultrasound and then met with my husband and my mother and I. He was everything but positive. He said he didn’t think they could be separated and that most likely they wouldn’t make it. He didn’t give us much hope. He encouraged us to terminate the pregnancy. We left there all in tears. I could feel the babies move and it killed me inside. I knew then I couldn’t give up on them"

They are being delivered by c-section this morning March 1st 2012. They are at CHOPS in PA. Please  pray for this wonderful and faithful family. God does a remarkable job listening to our prayers. And when you pray, please pray for all babies that have left earth too soon; Ava and Teagan, Skylar and Siri, Faith Lea and Hope Alyzbeth, Peyton and Sundae, Arianna and Isabella, Melody Joy and Madison Hope, Addy and Ally, Faith Rosemarie and Hope Lillian.
Thank you.

Exclusive Video:

Monday, January 30, 2012

March For Life 2012

 If Faith and Hope were still alive I know they would want you to watch this video.
Every child deserves to live.

FHL <3


I got a surprise email from one of my blog followers . I sent her Faith and Hope bracelets awhile back. She was attending this years March for Life.  She was almost ready to leave her home but she quickly grabbed the bracelets and wore them proudly during the march. I just want to say THANK YOU for thinking about my sweet angels and  for attending that cold/rainy parade.  It means so much to me.  I know if Faith and Hope were still alive they would have wanted to save babies lives. 

Their story proves that all life has value and the right to be born and loved.

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

Amazing Video

This video is amazing! After watching it, I am more amazed by God. It is a beautiful and inspirational video. I don't know how anyone could deny God's power and will after watching this! It is pure amazement. The human body is simply amazing. 

Something to marvel about. Two cells (sperm and egg) make you.

Yale scientist on the video talks about how complex the human fetus is. He says it's beyond human comprehension. "It's like magic"

If only we can only get more pregnant women to watch this video, I believe they would realize that abortion is nothing but murder.

In video you can clearly see that a fetus is a human being from the moment of conception!

How can our country and our world permit the massive destruction of human lives??

Thursday, November 24, 2011


Happy Thanksgiving Everyone!

Be Thankful for what you have, because someone my never be given that chance. Whether it is be being able to have children, owning a car or house, having food on the table, or running water. 

In these past months I’ve been trying to stay positive, and move forward. Some days are harder than others, when knowing God took my daughters so soon. So, this thanksgiving, I need to remind myself that I am thankful for everything God has given me. 

Lord, I'm struggling show me what I have to be thankful for:
  1. I can see
  2. I can walk
  3. I have shelter
  4. I have never gone hungry
  5. I have a family that loves me
  6. I have great friends
  7. I have a bed
  8. I have a computer
  9. I have clean running water
  10. I can hear
  11. I have a job
  12. I have a cell phone
  13. My health is good
  14. I have a bathroom
  15. I have 5 nieces and nephews
  16. I have plenty of clothes
  17. I can read
  18. I own a car
  19. I gave birth to twins
  20. I am alive

 Thank you God for giving me life; Amen.

"Thankfulness is the defense against materialism"